Expressions

I love expressing myself. Sometimes though, I find that words aren't quite enough. When I'm angry or unhappy, excited or elated, I just can't translate my feelings. And how can I? Hearts are hard to sum up with words.

I think that's the reason why I love the things I do--piano, writing, cooking, art and photography, creating in general. All of those activities are ways of getting my heart and soul into something tangible. In an odd way, its my form of dealing with issues in my life.

I made breakfast this morning so that my mom could have a break. Peach & Apricot Smoothies and Tomato & Cheese Omelets, with a simple centerpiece of cone flowers. And that's the way I felt--homemade and simple, yet beautiful. I'm finally realizing that God made me the way he wanted me to be, and he thinks I'm gorgeous. Even if I think my forehead is too small and my nose is too dipped and all those other things.

The short story on the last post also is a reflection of my life. Lately, I've been realizing that I've not been treating Luthien at all nicely. It's not as bad as Aileen and Pepper, but it's still unacceptable. That was just a day ago. Now I'm already reforming my friendship with my lil' sister, and Aileen and Pepper's example is really helping me.

A lot of my main characters have at least one older sibling--another parallel. I've always wanted an older brother or sister, and I almost had one. My older sibling would have been sixteen around August. My MCs older brother or sister is, a lot of times, what I think my older sibling would have been like. Take Kate and Elizabeth, for example, in my NaNoWriMo novel. They have their conflicts, of course, and they're very different, but they get along. I think Kate would be the best older sister I could have.

After two years of sharing a room with Luthien, I'm going to have a room of my own! Er, actually, it's rather complicated. See, first Galdor has to be potty-trained (and we need a working washing machine for that...more on that point later), and then I'm going to move into his room. Luthien is going to move into Erestor's room, and Erestor and Galdor are going to move into Luthien and mine's room! Confused yet? I'm really excited, though. My room will be a 'Stone Brown' that looks really pretty (the color is currently 'Goldfish'). I'm looking at this new opportunity as a new way to express myself. I can't wait!

Ah, yes. And now about our washing machine. It's been broken for over a month. Nearly a month and a half, now. To cut a loooong story short, it's been a hassle to get it fixed. We've been doing laundry at the Laundry Mat and at generous neighbors' houses. It was cool at first because we didn't have to fold laundry every day, but now I really miss our washing machine! =/ It's making things really complicated, and it's delaying Galdor's potty-training. It's hopefully going to be fixed on Tuesday, but I have a sinking feeling... =( We've already gone back and forth with the company, and have had three appointments canceled. Yes, a wreck. No, not very fun. Everyone, run and give your washing machine a big hug!!

We've also just switched to Fios, and things are going awkwardly. The computer is working great, but we can't get the DVD player to work. Not very good, seeing as I need a DVD player to advance on my Latin studies. So right now I'm just reviewing flashcards and hoping that we get everything figured out before a real calamity happens.

One last thing...does anyone have a trick for headaches? I've had this annoying headache for a couple of months on and off now. The Vitamin D stuff has cleared a lot of it up, but it's still lurking beneath the surface. It's made me unjustifiably grumpy. I hope it's nothing serious...

Have a nice day, everyone! Boy, this post sure has rambled. =)

Izori